Well. I am super confused about this blogger and blogspot stuff. Any feedback on that would be so appreciated.

I went on my first bicycle ride of the year this morning/afternoon. I can't find my phone. I stayed the night at a friend's house last night and woke up this morning to beautiful blue skies, warm sunshine and a slightly strong breeze. Birds. :) Somewhere between her room and my car I lost my phone and still haven't found it. I decided to ride my (borrowed) bike over to her house and look again. Nothing. She lives in the same neighborhood as my grandparents (to whom I have been mostly absent and uncommitted to all of my life... they don't live much more than a mile away. Sad right?) Well, I mustard up some courage and rode on over there. :) Grandpa was more than welcoming and made fresh coffee and set some homemade cookies right in front of me. I noticed that he gave me a mug that I had mentioned some time ago that I liked. He also said he thought of me when he reads the Ranger Review. That's where I work. It's our local newspaper that I sell advertising for.

This may all seem pretty boring to anyone reading. But for me, it's a huge step in my Walk with Jesus. I have always been really amazed by God's faithfulness and pursuit of me. It blows me away that while I was still in sin, He loved me. And rescued me. Recently, my friend Ashley and I haven't been as close as we were when we first became friends which was a couple years ago when she first accepted Jesus as Lord. Recently, Ashley had put up walls to guard her heart, and I felt it, and in my spirit, I knew our relationship was not right. God kept saying, "Pursue Ashley. Submit to her, and love her." And I would try, but things were not right. So I asked God what was wrong.

God showed me that in every single one of my relationships, I have been unfaithful. Either girl friends or boyfriends. I have not pursued, and I have not been committed in my heart. And God, in His Grace and Love, doesn't let us stay how we are. He is like Spring, making me new all the time. I told Ashley what God said, and now I can change. I apologized for certain actions, and simply told her that I am committed to her and her Walk. Gosh.

I am committed, first, to Christ. Then to anyone and everyone (by His grace) He leads me to. This afternoon, for the first time in my entire life, I visited my grandparents. I stayed for 3 hours while sipping coffee, and looking through photos and talking about general life happenings. (The Author of) Time will bring them to the Lord. :)

God is pouring out His Spirit. I am so in awe of His work that I can barely keep in this joy at times. He is faithful, and in pursuit of everyone. Through His faithful servants, He chooses to do wonders, and I am so thankful and humbled.

Come

Come The Fount of every blessing,
tune my heart to sing Thy grace;
Streams of mercy never ceasing,
call for songs of loudest praise!
Teach me some melodious sonnet,
such by flaming tongues above.
Praise the Mount; I'm fixed upon it,
Mount of God's redeeming Love.

Here I raise my Ebeneezer,
hither to They help I'm come.
And I hope by They good pleasure
safely to arrive at home.
Jesus sought me when a stranger,
wandering from the fold of God;
He, to rescue me from danger,
interposed His precious blood.

O to grace how great a debtor
daily I'm constrained to be.
Let they goodness, like a fetter,
bind my wandering heart to Thee:
Prone to wander, Lord I feel it,
prone to leave the God I love...
Here's my heart, O take and seal it,
seal it for They courts above!________________________________________________

November: I am artist of the month at the local Art Gallery!
God is so faithful even when we are not. He has shown me this so many times throughout my life. He has been faithful in pursuing me for almost 24 years now, and I know He will never stop pursuing my heart, and tuning it to sing His grace. I do pray I can be an instrument for which His Spirit to breathe into and through. Thank you, Lord for my sound, and the song of my life. There are unbeautiful, muddy parts, but together with the rest of the melodies of His family is a delightful Song of the Symphony His Hand is orchestrating.

Well, here is a link to all my pieces that are being shown this month!

http://www.dcaugallery.org/nov2010.html

I know that this wouldn't happen without the perfect work of the Author of my faith, and His Spirit interweaving all the good and bad together, into beauty; without the gifts He has so freely given me, and the encouraging words from my friends all of my life He also has so freely blessed me with. His plans for me are so good! I need not fear anything!

Fear Factor: I'm still working at the newspaper and I am still conquering even more fear! It's glorious. I hate fear, and I hate the prison Fear is holding The Bride captive in. I hope to be used by God to set the prisoners free! This children's song is so profound:

I've got a River of Life flowing out of me.
Makes the lame to walk and the blind to see,
opens prison doors, sets the captives free
I've got a River of Life flowing out of me
-Spring up, O Well, within my soul (john 7:37)
-Spring up, O Well, and make me whole
-Spring up, O Well, and give to me -- that Life--abundantly.

I sang this song as a tiny child!! I'm blown away that these lyrics are in a children's song. I love it. I want childlike faith.