Well. I am super confused about this blogger and blogspot stuff. Any feedback on that would be so appreciated.

I went on my first bicycle ride of the year this morning/afternoon. I can't find my phone. I stayed the night at a friend's house last night and woke up this morning to beautiful blue skies, warm sunshine and a slightly strong breeze. Birds. :) Somewhere between her room and my car I lost my phone and still haven't found it. I decided to ride my (borrowed) bike over to her house and look again. Nothing. She lives in the same neighborhood as my grandparents (to whom I have been mostly absent and uncommitted to all of my life... they don't live much more than a mile away. Sad right?) Well, I mustard up some courage and rode on over there. :) Grandpa was more than welcoming and made fresh coffee and set some homemade cookies right in front of me. I noticed that he gave me a mug that I had mentioned some time ago that I liked. He also said he thought of me when he reads the Ranger Review. That's where I work. It's our local newspaper that I sell advertising for.

This may all seem pretty boring to anyone reading. But for me, it's a huge step in my Walk with Jesus. I have always been really amazed by God's faithfulness and pursuit of me. It blows me away that while I was still in sin, He loved me. And rescued me. Recently, my friend Ashley and I haven't been as close as we were when we first became friends which was a couple years ago when she first accepted Jesus as Lord. Recently, Ashley had put up walls to guard her heart, and I felt it, and in my spirit, I knew our relationship was not right. God kept saying, "Pursue Ashley. Submit to her, and love her." And I would try, but things were not right. So I asked God what was wrong.

God showed me that in every single one of my relationships, I have been unfaithful. Either girl friends or boyfriends. I have not pursued, and I have not been committed in my heart. And God, in His Grace and Love, doesn't let us stay how we are. He is like Spring, making me new all the time. I told Ashley what God said, and now I can change. I apologized for certain actions, and simply told her that I am committed to her and her Walk. Gosh.

I am committed, first, to Christ. Then to anyone and everyone (by His grace) He leads me to. This afternoon, for the first time in my entire life, I visited my grandparents. I stayed for 3 hours while sipping coffee, and looking through photos and talking about general life happenings. (The Author of) Time will bring them to the Lord. :)

God is pouring out His Spirit. I am so in awe of His work that I can barely keep in this joy at times. He is faithful, and in pursuit of everyone. Through His faithful servants, He chooses to do wonders, and I am so thankful and humbled.

Heaven is inside of me....

Well, I'm back in Kona, Hawaii. Love seeing all my friends, especially Courtney Edge :) Monday Morning worship was amazing. I was actually thinking about skipping it, because I've never really understood corporate worship.. but I'm starting to figuring out my part in the Body of Christ, and corporate worship this morning was beautiful. The Lord met me in a deep place. Kandi was next to me and came to minister to me.. she also felt the depth. :) I've been asking God to take me deeper and of course He's faithful to a prayer like that. The way He met me this morning, I think He was confirming my decision for PhaseII of Fire and Fragrance. It's going to be an intense season, full of beauty and depth and height and width. He's bringing me to a more solid place. I'm learning to believe and to trust.

This morning we had our last day of team time I think. We went out for breakfast and coffee at Lava Java and just shared our dreams and life goals and visions for our lives, and then we prayed for eachother just letting God speak to and through us. I'm not totally sure what I will be doing for the rest of my life, but for now I'm really just seeking for my Triune God. I want to know everything I can about Him because His Love is so deep and He's so good. I want to see His beauty. One thing I do see myself doing is travelling to the Nations and encouraging the Bride. I don't know what it really looks like, but I know I'm starting to figure it out. I am really loving life, and loving who God made me to be... and I am really seeing how much He is giving me His heart for people. I'm so thankful and hopeful and expectant!

...and His glory is being stirred up inside of and all around me. And the knowledge of His glory will fill the earth like the water fills the seas.