a womanly woman

I am a woman. Women don't flirt with their eyes, or do things to receive attention from men. She doesn't text a "possible" for sake of friendship and emotional satisfaction. She will not facebook a "hope" to gain comfort. She is strong and unavailable in the natural. She hides her heart in Christ and looks to Him for love and affection. She stays there in the secret place, gaining strength and wisdom from her Lover, the True satisfier of her soul, and spirit. She puts her full trust and hope in the Lord, who is the Author of her Life.

She is always concerned of her Father's business, feeding and taking care of His flock. She is kind, but guarded. Her heart is not on the line for anyone to read, except those entrusted to her care. She is weak and vulnerable. Naked. Before her Prince of Peace. For it is here that He is able to have His way.

He... is intimate. He is here. He is there, He is now, He is. Inside me, above me, below me, embracing me, carrying me, leading me, protecting me, guiding me, moving me, compelling me. He is. Alive, and my spirit bears witness.

Choose Wisdom. Seek peace and pursue it.

Well. I am super confused about this blogger and blogspot stuff. Any feedback on that would be so appreciated.

I went on my first bicycle ride of the year this morning/afternoon. I can't find my phone. I stayed the night at a friend's house last night and woke up this morning to beautiful blue skies, warm sunshine and a slightly strong breeze. Birds. :) Somewhere between her room and my car I lost my phone and still haven't found it. I decided to ride my (borrowed) bike over to her house and look again. Nothing. She lives in the same neighborhood as my grandparents (to whom I have been mostly absent and uncommitted to all of my life... they don't live much more than a mile away. Sad right?) Well, I mustard up some courage and rode on over there. :) Grandpa was more than welcoming and made fresh coffee and set some homemade cookies right in front of me. I noticed that he gave me a mug that I had mentioned some time ago that I liked. He also said he thought of me when he reads the Ranger Review. That's where I work. It's our local newspaper that I sell advertising for.

This may all seem pretty boring to anyone reading. But for me, it's a huge step in my Walk with Jesus. I have always been really amazed by God's faithfulness and pursuit of me. It blows me away that while I was still in sin, He loved me. And rescued me. Recently, my friend Ashley and I haven't been as close as we were when we first became friends which was a couple years ago when she first accepted Jesus as Lord. Recently, Ashley had put up walls to guard her heart, and I felt it, and in my spirit, I knew our relationship was not right. God kept saying, "Pursue Ashley. Submit to her, and love her." And I would try, but things were not right. So I asked God what was wrong.

God showed me that in every single one of my relationships, I have been unfaithful. Either girl friends or boyfriends. I have not pursued, and I have not been committed in my heart. And God, in His Grace and Love, doesn't let us stay how we are. He is like Spring, making me new all the time. I told Ashley what God said, and now I can change. I apologized for certain actions, and simply told her that I am committed to her and her Walk. Gosh.

I am committed, first, to Christ. Then to anyone and everyone (by His grace) He leads me to. This afternoon, for the first time in my entire life, I visited my grandparents. I stayed for 3 hours while sipping coffee, and looking through photos and talking about general life happenings. (The Author of) Time will bring them to the Lord. :)

God is pouring out His Spirit. I am so in awe of His work that I can barely keep in this joy at times. He is faithful, and in pursuit of everyone. Through His faithful servants, He chooses to do wonders, and I am so thankful and humbled.