Affed!

JAcKiE
Line, Color, emotion,
Spirit, YOU ARE NOT TIMID,
YOU ARE NOT AFRAID
YOU WILL
WASTE SOMEONE
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A FRIEND, SWEET,
A LISTENING EAR, A SMILE
HAPPY TO SEE ME, COLLECTED
WISE, KNOWLEDGABLE, UNDERSTANDING
LEAVE A MARK, RISK, BELIEVE, CONQUER
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In a murmer
In a whisper you found Me
You became more of yourself than you were without me
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To see, to create
To LOVE, to wonder
To know Him

You still have something left to unveil. You still have new waters to sail. When you rest at the end of the day, there is still more to you than someone could say.
Love searches out.
He bounds over the hills
Hoping that you will unlatch the gate
He rests on the edge of your Mystery
and peers deEPER__________-Joseph Swanson-

Come

Come The Fount of every blessing,
tune my heart to sing Thy grace;
Streams of mercy never ceasing,
call for songs of loudest praise!
Teach me some melodious sonnet,
such by flaming tongues above.
Praise the Mount; I'm fixed upon it,
Mount of God's redeeming Love.

Here I raise my Ebeneezer,
hither to They help I'm come.
And I hope by They good pleasure
safely to arrive at home.
Jesus sought me when a stranger,
wandering from the fold of God;
He, to rescue me from danger,
interposed His precious blood.

O to grace how great a debtor
daily I'm constrained to be.
Let they goodness, like a fetter,
bind my wandering heart to Thee:
Prone to wander, Lord I feel it,
prone to leave the God I love...
Here's my heart, O take and seal it,
seal it for They courts above!________________________________________________

November: I am artist of the month at the local Art Gallery!
God is so faithful even when we are not. He has shown me this so many times throughout my life. He has been faithful in pursuing me for almost 24 years now, and I know He will never stop pursuing my heart, and tuning it to sing His grace. I do pray I can be an instrument for which His Spirit to breathe into and through. Thank you, Lord for my sound, and the song of my life. There are unbeautiful, muddy parts, but together with the rest of the melodies of His family is a delightful Song of the Symphony His Hand is orchestrating.

Well, here is a link to all my pieces that are being shown this month!

http://www.dcaugallery.org/nov2010.html

I know that this wouldn't happen without the perfect work of the Author of my faith, and His Spirit interweaving all the good and bad together, into beauty; without the gifts He has so freely given me, and the encouraging words from my friends all of my life He also has so freely blessed me with. His plans for me are so good! I need not fear anything!

Fear Factor: I'm still working at the newspaper and I am still conquering even more fear! It's glorious. I hate fear, and I hate the prison Fear is holding The Bride captive in. I hope to be used by God to set the prisoners free! This children's song is so profound:

I've got a River of Life flowing out of me.
Makes the lame to walk and the blind to see,
opens prison doors, sets the captives free
I've got a River of Life flowing out of me
-Spring up, O Well, within my soul (john 7:37)
-Spring up, O Well, and make me whole
-Spring up, O Well, and give to me -- that Life--abundantly.

I sang this song as a tiny child!! I'm blown away that these lyrics are in a children's song. I love it. I want childlike faith.

"Ahhh, I don't know what I really want to do!"
"Jack, I think you should really come home, and so does your mom."
((thinking, yeahh well everyone in Kona thinks I should be in Kona))
-Ashley and I, Friday afternoon

A conversation full of uncertainty and fear, laughter and tears, took me back home to a small town of rugged beauty and family I hold dear.

Back home Wednesday afternoon. Sick for a week. Better. Time for a haircut! Saltwater, sun and wind are damaging to the hair, AND I hadn't had a trim in over 3 months. Got my hair cut, and decided I should probably finally seek a job, I headed to the local coffee shop to ask for a job application. So I got it, ordered my drink, and was about to sit at a table, drink my double white-chocolate americano (thank you Daniel York) fill out my application, hand it in, and leave. Well I turn to my left and my friend Alisa Werner becomes the subject of veiw. "Woah, Alisa! How are you!??! What are you doing??" "Just meeting with the.. DC..H.CC.. how are you!?" "Good! Just applying for a job.." ...we talked for a few minutes about my plans being home, and how i love the atmosphere of coffee shops and it led to me sitting in on the meeing she was in.

DCHCC: Dawson County Healthy Community Coallition. A volunteer group of citizens with a longterm vision of actually changing the culture of this small town. Partying, and drinking and driving is a prevelent scene here, and I think Jesus has actually places this same desire in my heart a couple years ago. I love when people can get together and have a great time without alcohol. I met with this diverse group of people a couple times before I left for my missions trip, and here I am again. Funny how God works: Pam Ruth, a lady from the local Newspaper saw me filling out an application and inquired of my need for a job. "Well, we need an Ad Consultant for the Ranger Review!" She asked me to walk over with her after this meeting, so I did. I grabbed an application and went home. I came in the next day with the application, knowing this was from Jesus. I had an interview within 2 minutes and I got the job in 5. God has amazing plans for me...

Back to the meeting in the coffee shop with DCHCC. They were talking about an Open Mic Night at the newish Bistro in town. So many exciting things! This kind of stuff doesn't happen in Glendive. We were all buzzin about the fair, the open mic night, and someone asked me what I had been doing. So I briefly told them about my missions trip to Hawaii and Europe. Somehow it got out that I play the flute. They all wanted me to play my flute at open mic night, so I got a list of songs ready, got my flute all ready... and I said, "Jesus, You know I'm not actually going to do this." "Jackie.. you can do it. You'll bring life and light to the people there and you'll have fun. This is a gift from Me."

I went. I got asked several times to go up. I didn't. There is a battle for me being in front of people. I think Jesus wants me to. I think that the enemy has told me I would be horrible at it, and I just don't need to be in front of people. Things are changing. Jesus got me a job with the public. I carry His Presence. I love Him.

P.S. I have an interview with the newspaper tomorrow and they are doing an article on me and my missions trip for this weekend's paper. :) Jesus and I are best friends.

...just art :)

God is really calling me to get some art into this world. I feel really small when I think about all the other art out there, and Comparison wants me to believe I shouldn't even try. But God's Voice is the One i listen to now :) He really has given me a passion for creativity since I was really small. I have a pretty vivid snapshot in my mind of a piece of recycled, grey-ish worksheet sitting on my desk, asking me what I want to be when I grown up, and it was just such an obvious answer to me: Artist. That was in Kindergarten. Here I am still intrigued with what My Creator and I do on paper.

I just graduated Discipleship Training School, and one of the questions while debriefing was: Looking back, what is one area you have been encouraged in most of your life? ...art. I think it's just so obvious God wants to use my art. So, here is some.. I definitely have more stored at home that I want to get on here, but I'm kind of in a hurry because I need money for my next step: PhaseII of Fire and Fragrance, School of Revival and Reformation, which starts July 7th.


If you or anyone you know would like me to design anything for them, I would be honored: tattoo, something on paper, birthday card, calender, whatever.

alright, thanks for reading. :) Be blessed. God is good.

Heaven is inside of me....

Well, I'm back in Kona, Hawaii. Love seeing all my friends, especially Courtney Edge :) Monday Morning worship was amazing. I was actually thinking about skipping it, because I've never really understood corporate worship.. but I'm starting to figuring out my part in the Body of Christ, and corporate worship this morning was beautiful. The Lord met me in a deep place. Kandi was next to me and came to minister to me.. she also felt the depth. :) I've been asking God to take me deeper and of course He's faithful to a prayer like that. The way He met me this morning, I think He was confirming my decision for PhaseII of Fire and Fragrance. It's going to be an intense season, full of beauty and depth and height and width. He's bringing me to a more solid place. I'm learning to believe and to trust.

This morning we had our last day of team time I think. We went out for breakfast and coffee at Lava Java and just shared our dreams and life goals and visions for our lives, and then we prayed for eachother just letting God speak to and through us. I'm not totally sure what I will be doing for the rest of my life, but for now I'm really just seeking for my Triune God. I want to know everything I can about Him because His Love is so deep and He's so good. I want to see His beauty. One thing I do see myself doing is travelling to the Nations and encouraging the Bride. I don't know what it really looks like, but I know I'm starting to figure it out. I am really loving life, and loving who God made me to be... and I am really seeing how much He is giving me His heart for people. I'm so thankful and hopeful and expectant!

...and His glory is being stirred up inside of and all around me. And the knowledge of His glory will fill the earth like the water fills the seas.

...feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace.

First Blog. Last country on my first outreach. France! So many firsts this year.. I started by leaving my hometown for the first time ever in the first month of the year. I am on my first outreach which consists of getting to know God, myself, and my team. I love all 3 a lot, and I know my love will only grow. I am overcoming a lot of fear, which is being replaced with beautiful freedom. I am learning that God has a wonderful journey in store for me. Adventure is my most recent chapter, and Love my greatest goal.

I am learning how much I love children, and how the enemy for so long has made me believe I don't. I think most children have a mutual love for me. It's an intense process trying to "figure out children", but it's fun. I, like my Creator, am an artist, and a child's skin is quickly becoming my favorite canvas... we have been barbecuing in a vacant lot outside some low-income apartments here, and for the first few days I walked around interceding, and last night our team brought some acrylic paint. I started out by painting Gena's face, and chaos erupted soon after. The most popular "tattoo" was a flame that happened because Grace wanted me to paint something on her arm, and fire is most appropriate for her. Kids running around with fire painted on their forearms, and whiskers painted on their faces and hearts on their shoulders... they are running in His Presence, and I know we are working with God to start a spark in their hearts, and passion for His Name. I am falling in love with children.

Many nations are calling my name as I hold His in my heart. My feet are so antsy to run. My heart is alive. My mind is curious. Welcome to my Adventures ^^