"Ahhh, I don't know what I really want to do!"
"Jack, I think you should really come home, and so does your mom."
((thinking, yeahh well everyone in Kona thinks I should be in Kona))
-Ashley and I, Friday afternoon

A conversation full of uncertainty and fear, laughter and tears, took me back home to a small town of rugged beauty and family I hold dear.

Back home Wednesday afternoon. Sick for a week. Better. Time for a haircut! Saltwater, sun and wind are damaging to the hair, AND I hadn't had a trim in over 3 months. Got my hair cut, and decided I should probably finally seek a job, I headed to the local coffee shop to ask for a job application. So I got it, ordered my drink, and was about to sit at a table, drink my double white-chocolate americano (thank you Daniel York) fill out my application, hand it in, and leave. Well I turn to my left and my friend Alisa Werner becomes the subject of veiw. "Woah, Alisa! How are you!??! What are you doing??" "Just meeting with the.. DC..H.CC.. how are you!?" "Good! Just applying for a job.." ...we talked for a few minutes about my plans being home, and how i love the atmosphere of coffee shops and it led to me sitting in on the meeing she was in.

DCHCC: Dawson County Healthy Community Coallition. A volunteer group of citizens with a longterm vision of actually changing the culture of this small town. Partying, and drinking and driving is a prevelent scene here, and I think Jesus has actually places this same desire in my heart a couple years ago. I love when people can get together and have a great time without alcohol. I met with this diverse group of people a couple times before I left for my missions trip, and here I am again. Funny how God works: Pam Ruth, a lady from the local Newspaper saw me filling out an application and inquired of my need for a job. "Well, we need an Ad Consultant for the Ranger Review!" She asked me to walk over with her after this meeting, so I did. I grabbed an application and went home. I came in the next day with the application, knowing this was from Jesus. I had an interview within 2 minutes and I got the job in 5. God has amazing plans for me...

Back to the meeting in the coffee shop with DCHCC. They were talking about an Open Mic Night at the newish Bistro in town. So many exciting things! This kind of stuff doesn't happen in Glendive. We were all buzzin about the fair, the open mic night, and someone asked me what I had been doing. So I briefly told them about my missions trip to Hawaii and Europe. Somehow it got out that I play the flute. They all wanted me to play my flute at open mic night, so I got a list of songs ready, got my flute all ready... and I said, "Jesus, You know I'm not actually going to do this." "Jackie.. you can do it. You'll bring life and light to the people there and you'll have fun. This is a gift from Me."

I went. I got asked several times to go up. I didn't. There is a battle for me being in front of people. I think Jesus wants me to. I think that the enemy has told me I would be horrible at it, and I just don't need to be in front of people. Things are changing. Jesus got me a job with the public. I carry His Presence. I love Him.

P.S. I have an interview with the newspaper tomorrow and they are doing an article on me and my missions trip for this weekend's paper. :) Jesus and I are best friends.